Thursday, May 31, 2018

Half Way

Over the holiday weekend, we hit the halfway point for deployment.  Now, this is when I start to get antsy.  I get impatient and just want him to be home and for the separation to be over.  I am trying to fill up my calendar with exciting things to do or at least things to do so I can occupy my mind.  I know I sound ridiculous considering this deployment is 4.5 months.  However, that is 4.5 months of stuff he has missed out on.  There isn't anything that can be done to make up for that loss of time.

I believe this is officially deployment number 4 for us.  I was asked yesterday about how many deployments we have been through and I said 6.  I was incorrect however he has been gone for month-long trainings and various length TDYs that added up can be grouped into deployments.

My way to celebrate the halfway point was to go get a haircut and make myself a chocolate chip gluten-free, almond flour, waffle.  Really living on the edge folks.  They are things that I know get me out of the house for a little bit and make me feel happy.

I was asked yesterday if deployments get easier and a wonderful comment was made that "I am a pro at the deployments." The answer to all of that is no.  I think the deployments get harder.  The situation, location, job Nathan has is not the same for every deployment.  They change which puts various stressors on communication, filling up each other's love tank, and being there for each other on bad days.  Nathan and I are both introverts so we really rely on each other.  There are pros and cons to this.  Unfortunately, deployments are a con for introverts.  Then there are the other factors that don't help with deployments like age, living arrangements, community resources available and contact with family/friends.  This deployment is fairly quick after a move here to NC.  I have already seen three neighbors move out in the 6 months we have been here.  All of these have been while Nathan has been gone.

I have a job which is a great help in passing the time!  I have been so grateful!

Okay rambling over.  If you all can help me stay on track and provide some words of encouragement to help me get through the rest of this I would be appreciative!


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